another year © 2016

I'm not really sure where I am going with this post as I just began typing but I know it won't be one of my usual posts. I have been really stressed about my next step in life as I have 4 months left until I graduate High School. I applied to some colleges but I'm honestly not interested in spending so much money when I am not sure about what I want to do with my life. I just really wish to find something that makes me happy. I thought about doing cosmetology school and it honestly really excites me as I love coloring hair but then again it isn't that well of a career financially. I've also thought about being a real estate agent because i'm obsessed with real estate but that doesn't mean i'd be good at selling it. Maybe I could just wear really provocative clothes, wait, that might be illegal. The point is i'm not sure who I am nor what I want my future to look like in 15 years.

I might take a gap year or do a year of online classes at my local community college just so I won't be behind if I do decide to go to college. I want to spend this year finding myself, I think. I really want to travel but it is so expensive. I'm going to London for spring break but it's a trip with my school so I'm not sure how enlightening that will be, I'll try sneaking off on my own probably. I also hope to attend many many music festivals and concerts. Having a summer romance would be nice as well, but I am not that good with feelings. I crave real love but all I've seen is others settling because of situations that pressure them into it. Anyways, sponetanity is vital for me. I wish to have a significant other or platonic friend that I can call at 2 in the morning for a random road trip. I wish to have someone who would give up weed to save up for a week in another city, to meet people and make memories because you'll never seem them again. I'm tired of dinner and movies, pick up a jacket and let's climb a mountain.

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Don't know if anyone read this,

Jen A